Day 3~
I am the most laziest repeated student. Today, I choose to follow the clinician who has the least patient. Two outstanding happening make me think i had experienced new exposure!!
First, have u ever think what will happen if there is no current supply in ICU? I did experience this today. While I m writing the case note, suddenly no current supply. The doctor immediately check for all mechanical ventilators' current supply. All still functioning as usual. The clinician told me that there is two type of plug in ward, the yellow mark plug is for emergency use. No matter what happen to the current supply, the yellow-mark plug will function as usual. If it is not functioning, mean the plug is got problem, may need call technician to repair it. Every patient who need current supply for monitoring is safe!!
Second, today I finally have chance to enter psychiatric ward!! I am so excited! Each time i heard all the funny story who enter PSY ward, but i never experience byself. I feel very excited yet i feel very scare. This will be a very great memory especially in this tough time...@@

Day 4 ~
Today is the 4th day of my posting. As usual, we go up ward and we treat patient. Today, i did badly. The clinician is complaint about me. Her complaint start to make me worry about myself.
Today lunch, we are like celebrating our failure and we having indian food and chit-chat together the whole praying period. I can foresee that our friendship between those who fail will be very strong. Because we experienced it together. Only we can know the feeling better.
The worst part of today is stepped into jungle. I hate him. I hate him!!!! I did almost cry in front of him. But, i wont let him know my weakness. The more i face him, the more i feel want to quit the course. He makes me think that i seriously not a physiotherapist. I just want to QUIT!! Seriously, i dont want to meet him anymore after this!!!! He is my nightmare. I hate him!!!

The 8 days journey

I fail my practical exam. It's the journey during preparing my resit exam.

Day 1~
Today is the first day posting after so long. Liching and me definitely in the down mood. this recall back the memory that we gonna to commit suicide together when first semester. This time, will we discuss how to commit suicide again? haha...
Sara is the most steady failed-candidate. We are discussing why we fail in the exam. He claims that may be he is the only indian in the class? and he fail for both semester. High possibility. Damn pity...@@
the most steady failed-candidate is suggested us to go out celebrate and go for a date. He claims that, if there is no failure in life, the our life is just like a horizontal line. but if we get down, we may boot ourselves up above our current level. Ya, it is right, all right, just my emotion not yet adapt to the current situation.
Everyone only know how success Thomas Edison is, but anyone concerns how many failure he did? yea, it is right. Sara's word really make liching and me feel better.

Day2~
Today is the second day of posting. The day is down as usual. I am having moderate toothache. Life is torturing with toothache.
Early in the morning, I met Ray. He is so surprise that I fail in the exam. He feel weird when got know i fail. I am quite happy because he thought i am better than others, and in his judgement, I'm passed-student. He lets me choose which patient i want to treat. He treat me like real physio. This make me gain back my confident after a fall... Seriously, i lost my confident to mobilise a patient. I cant judge the clinical condition accordingly until i ask liching help me to decide...T.T

My father want visit me. But i refuse his visit. I dont know how i gonna to face him. I already get used to be independent, no body concern me all these days. So, i don't how to face the concerning from him. So i refuse. When i told liching about this, she said my strongness make her feel herself very weak. Haiz... i always play the role for consoling others, now the role is exchanges, so i really don't know how to take it. Not because i m strong and you are weak, it's just i train to be strong....

The lion want us to settle up all the thesis and manuscript by this week. This really make me feel breathless, especially in current mood...

我們一定要面帶微笑，

勇敢去面對挑戰 ..

Wherever you go, 

whatever you are doing, 

ALWAYS

Clearly define your goal. 

BREATHE

Please breathe! I'm almost there. 

Life is suck with thesis. 

It is so torturing. I lost my smile. 

I feel lack of oxygen supply for myself!!

It's not a joke.

There is lots of happening recently. 

Whether i like it or not, the life is still go in. 

I dont even have choice to choose whether i want accept all this or not. 

I'm seriously dissatisfied with my life now.

One day, I will change it!!

I keep the promise for myself. 

My life, please wait for me~

I can see. 

~ALMOST THERE~

Merry Sinyu

Persevere

Jamues said: "When you don't see the results that you want, persevere and push on..."


这才是我该有的态度啊！
我太消极，太容易放弃了。
这真的很不像我！
有时候我会想，
是我变了吗？我老了？有心无力了吗？
还是我经历的这一切，
让我变得不敢有目标，
我只想躲在comfort zone.
我真的好累哦。。。
我休息，我沉淀，我冷静，
我还是找不回原来的我。。。


*原来环境真的可以改变一个人~

Once Upon a Time

Today, when I was arranged back some files in my laptop, and I found out this post. 

要忘记一个人是没有方程式的。当你越想忘记一个人的时候，你可能永远忘不了他。当你想着要怎样忘记他时，又没有发觉那个他又出现在你脑海里了。你想，我要忘记与他共度最回味的那个夜晚，你会先回忆一遍那晚的情景。那样，你何时才能忘记那个他呢？

我曾经很努力的想要忘记一个人。我用尽了方法想要忘记那个人。听别人说，用多久的时间去爱一个人，就需要用那么久的时间去忘记他。我信。可是我对他的爱没间断过，那我到底喜欢他多久了呢？我自己也不清楚。又有时候，我让自己很忙很忙，忙到我自己也精疲力尽了，几乎倒在床上就能入眠。可是他还是在我心里。 他的一个背影，几乎就能把握的努力一次击败。

我多次的骂自己，，我怎么那么傻呢？我自己也不知道。就像戏剧里头每次演的戏码，我不相信爱情，爱情在我的生活里简直就是Nothing.直到我遇见了他。他一样是个人，两个眼睛一个鼻子一个嘴巴。可是我就是喜欢上他了，而不是别人。跟他在一起的第一个夜晚，天空是漆黑的，闪烁的星星点缀了这漆黑的夜空。这星空很美。是我从来没认真注意过夜空，还是因为有他在身旁陪旁呢？我们俩什么话都没说。静静的享受着这静谧的时刻。

分开后，我已养成一种习惯，就是抬头看天空。抬头看天空是因为我想他了。后来有一天晚上，天空依然漆黑，星星依然点缀着，可是他已不在我身旁。那时候的我，很累。幸福让人嘴角上扬，想念让人很累。

现在的我在离家几千里，这里的天空很美。而且还有一颗很明亮的星星，每天都在同个方向出现。每当天空漆黑一片时，那颗星星还是会出现。

有时候，人是矛盾的，明明口头上说我不喜欢他了。转个身，又会想他到底在做什么？

爱情到底是什么东西？每个人你都不知道，每个人都在问同样的问题。有些人爱的很幸福，爱让他们拥有了全世界。有些人爱的浑身是伤，他们认为爱让他们受罪了。

初恋，像是牛奶巧克力。偿第一口的时候，每个人都会爱上它。可是吃久了，会腻。甚至会有甜尿病。可是爱情应该像苦涩的巧克力，不甜腻既有让人回味无穷。太甜的巧克力会让人感到厌烦，久了，就会觉得很腻。

He will always the beauty in my life. I still miss him. Frankly speaking, I love him. And i never forget is the critical time during 'the process of forgetting him', my friends stay sides of me, and they share the happiness with me. I guess they never knew when this happen. Haha... Anyway, thanks. I am fine. 

Smile makes thing easy.. ^^

Always be strong...